THE DISAPPOINTMENT

by: Aphra Behn

I.

NE day the amorous Lysander,

By an impatient passion swayed,

Surprised fair Cloris, that loved maid,

Who could defend herself no longer.

All things did with his love conspire;

The gilded planet of the day,

In his gay chariot drawn by fire,

Was now descending to the sea,

And left no light to guide the world,

But what from Cloris' brighter eyes was hurled.

 

II.

 

In a lone thicket made for love,

Silent as a yielding maid's consent,

She with a charming languishment,

Permits his force, yet gently strove;

Her hands his bosom softly meet,

But not to put him back designed,

Rather to draw him on inclined;

Whilst he lay trembling at her feet,

Resistance 'tis in vain to show;

She wants the power to say -- 'Ah! What d'ye do?'

 

III.

 

Her bright eyes sweet, and yet severe,

Where love and shame confusedly strive,

Fresh vigour to Lysander give;

And breathing faintly in his ear,

She cried -- 'Cease, cease -- your vain desire,

Or I'll call out -- what would you do?

My dearer honour even to you

I cannot, must not give -- retire,

Or take this life, whose chiefest part

I gave you with the conquest of my heart.'

 

IV.

 

But he as much unused to fear,

As he was capable of love,

The blessed minutes to improve,

Kisses her mouth, her neck, her hair;

Each touch her new desire alarms,

His burning trembling hand he pressed

Upon her swelling snowy breast,

While she lay panting in his arms.

All her unguarded beauties lie

The spoils and trophies of the enemy.

 

V.

 

And now without respect or fear,

He seeks the object of his vows,

(His love no modesty allows)

By swift degrees advancing where

His daring hand that altar siezed,

Where gods of love do sacrifice:

That awful throne, that paradise

Where rage is calmed, and anger pleased,

That fountain where delight still flows,

And gives the universal world repose.

 

VI.

 

Her balmy lips encountering his,

Their bodies, as their souls, are joined;

Where both in transports unconfined

Extend themselves upon the moss.

Cloris half dead and breathless lay;

Her soft eyes cast a humid light,

Such as divides the day and night;

Or falling stars, whose fires decay:

And now no signs of life she shows,

But what in short-breathed sighs returns and goes.

 

VII.

 

He saw how at her length she lay;

He saw her rising bosom bare;

Her loose thin robes, through which appear

A shape designed for love and play;

Abandoned by her pride and shame

She does her softest joys dispense,

Offering her virgin innocence

A victim to love's sacred flame;

While the o'er-ravished shepherd lies

Unable to perform the sacrifice.

 

VIII.

 

Ready to taste a thousand joys,

The too transported hapless swain

Found the vast pleasure turned to pain;

Pleasure which too much love destroys.

The willing garments by he laid,

And Heaven all opened to his view,

Mad to possess, himself he threw

On the defenceless lovely maid.

But oh what envious gods conspire

To snatch his power, yet leave him the desire!

 

IX.

 

Nature's support (without whose aid

She can no human being give)

Itself now wants the art to live;

Faintness its slackened nerves invade;

In vain th'enraged youth essayed

To call its fleeting vigour back,

No motion 'twill from motion take;

Excess of love his love betrayed.

In vain he toils, in vain commands;

The insensible fell weeping in his hand.

 

X.

 

In this so amorous cruel strife,

Where love and fate were too severe,

The poor Lysander in despair

Renounced his reason with his life.

Now all the brisk and active fire

That should the nobler part inflame,

Served to increase his rage and shame,

And left no spark of new desire:

Not all her naked charms could move

Or calm that rage that had debauched his love.

 

XI.

 

Cloris returning from the trance

Which love and soft desire had bred,

Her timorous hand she gently laid

(Or guided by design or chance)

Upon that fabulous Priapas,

That potent god, as poets feign;

But never did young shepherdess,

Gathering of fern upon the plain,

More nimbly draw her fingers back,

Finding beneath the verdant leaves, a snake.

 

XII.

 

Then Cloris her fair hand withdrew,

Finding that god of her desires

Disarmed of all his awful fires,

And cold as flowers bathed in morning dew.

Who can the nymph's confusion guess?

The blood forsook the hinder place,

And strewed with blushes all her face,

Which both disdain and shame expressed:

And from Lysander's arms she fled,

Leaving him fainting on the gloomy bed.

 

XIII.

 

Like lightning through the grove she hies,

Or Daphne from the Delphic god,

No print upon the grassy road

She leaves, t'instruct pursuing eyes.

The wind that wantoned in her hair,

And with her ruffled garments played,

Discovered in the flying maid

All that the gods e'er made, of fair.

So Venus, when her love was slain,

With fear and haste flew o'er the fatal plain.

 

XIV.

 

The nymph's resentments none but I

Can well imagine or condole:

But none can guess Lysander's soul,

But those who swayed his destiny.

His silent griefs swell up to storms,

And not one god his fury spares;

He cursed his birth, his fate, his stars

But more the shepherdess's charms,

Whose soft bewitching influence

Had damned him to the hell of impotence.

 

• Aphra Behn - A biography of the British poet and dramatist.
• Aphra Behn - A biography of the British dramatist and spy for England, code-named "Astrea" or Agent 160.
• Aphra Behn: Bibliography - A bibliography of the works of Aphra Behn; includes a list of critical resources.
• Purchase books by Aphra Behn